Serializations

Socially Unacceptable Post 45: Symptoms


And good news to the purists: they’ve discovered a cure
For the symptoms of being alive
It’s a painless procedure with a low rate of failure
But very few patients survive

–Marsha, Thankk You for the Dialectics, but I Need You to Leave by Will Wood

When I was researching schizophrenia in college, I found the following symptoms across multiple websites. Schizophrenia is very broad so many people experience it differently. I put the symptoms I have in bold.

  • Hallucinations
  • Delusions
  • Unusual ways of thinking
  • Agitated body movements
  • Reduced expression of emotions (flat effect)
  • Reduced pleasure in everyday life
  • Difficulty beginning and sustaining activities
  • Reduced speaking
  • Poor executive functioning
  • Trouble focusing or paying attention
  • Problems with working memory (ability to use information immediately after learning it)
  • Social withdrawal
  • Losing touch with reality
  • Difficulty sleeping
  • Catatonia
  • Disorganized speech
  • Shifting from one thought to another quickly without connections
  • Moving slowly
  • Writing excessively without meaning
  • Forgetting or losing things
  • Repetitive gestures (ex. Pacing, walking in circles)
  • Having problems making sense of everyday sights, sounds
  • Lack of motivation
  • Less energy
  • Paranoia

I once had someone say that I hallucinated too much to be schizophrenic. That I had too many of the symptoms. That I couldn’t possibly be schizophrenic because it is over-diagnosed. I never answered that comment. They have a point. Perhaps I am too schizophrenic to be schizophrenic.

Just kidding. I think I will trust the doctor who diagnosed me with schizophrenia…since she, well, specializes in schizophrenia.

Post 45 in Socially Unacceptable: The Daily Life of a Queer Schizophrenic Wreck (2022)

This is an autobiographical series about my life, something I have wanted to do for a long time. I intend to add new content daily.

For the whole series, follow this link.

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