“Did the ‘red peony’ bloom?”
My schizophrenia is consistently pretty bad, but there are certain things that make it worse. Sickness, for instance. Fighting off a physical ailment seems to augment my hallucinations. But the main issue is when my period starts.
Suicidal Friday was the first day of one of my periods. I know periods have a reputation for making people unstable and prone to stronger emotions, as well as physically in pain. But for me, it takes all my hard to manage symptoms to the next level.
Usually, I can have anywhere between one and five voices going at a time. On my period, there are more voices than I count. There are hallucinations. There are flashbacks. And they all happen at once.
Menstrual blood does not tend to cause flashbacks. I guess it is regarded as a normal part of my life, but the hormones do seem to trigger my flashbacks and other schizophrenia symptoms regardless.
Post 66 in Socially Unacceptable: The Daily Life of a Queer Schizophrenic Wreck (2022)
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